A Prison My heart!

me ..?
somewhere where I am?
still closed ..
but stand strong ..
slightly staggered ..

run on a space ..
with eyes closed ..

audible noise ..
around me ..
they sneer.
they do not accept me ..

I slowly opened my eyes ..
of pejamnya dark ..

prison?
I see ..

I sometimes fed up ..
what's wrong with me ..?
I'm not a killer ..
I'm not a thief ..

at least they sentenced me ..
as the son of a bitch ..
kill someone I love ..

I was so shock ..

I gave a small cell ..
there are only a mattress .. and wrought iron ..

I gently lay my body ..
in bed smelling of sweat ..
God knows who has ever slept here before me ..

with heavy cuts and questioning ..

a glance ..
I see the hand scratches on the wall ..
no name ..
no shouts ..
there are pictures of men and women who are enjoying intercourse ..

2 months old ..
I get all that happened ..

when night falls ..
it's what I'm afraid ..
I know someone ..
named Rain ..
berparas hard ...
knows no love ..

if it is 12 midnight ..
guards only opened the door of my cell ..
and he came to beat me ..
that I can not whine anymore ..

he just said ..
as a festive reception for me ..

who knows how long I was treated like that ..

I was isolated in prison ..
I eat if allowed
I sleep if allowed
I throw tai if allowed ..
I was pee if allowed

at rest ..
I tried to walk on the field ...
filled with Bastard ...

I see someone ..
glasses ..
he saw me ..
whether what he thought ..

I tried to approach him ..
and initiate talks for the first time ...

"Hi .."
he was just silent.
busy with a cigarette between her lips to slip ..

and I paused ..
sitting beside her ..

"Horizon's you? who kill people you love .. "
and I looked at his face and replied ..
"Yes I am the horizon, but I'm not a killer .."
"Hahaha,," he laughed ...
"Just so you know, prison is at fault here no one"
I was silent as he said it ..
"My name is Star, the accused also like .., enjoy young children"

looks cynical smile ..
and smoke that pops up ..
when I left him alone ..

3 months passed ..
nothing changed ..
I'm still sore,,
especially when night falls ..
LGS spread fear ..
bruises and welts are still made an impression on my chest ..

I began to find a way for rain did not come back to me ..

I started to slip a fork to eat in my pants ..
tau2 he comes tonight ..
kugorok him with this fork ..

but I think long ..
if I do ..
warden will extend me in prison ..
for murder in prison ..
or even kill me, ..

benar2 my brain, .. beyond common sense ..
I do not care ..
10 years 40 years or die here ..
are the same,.

and that night I lay my body ..
and still mengnggengam fork ..

and she came ..
and I did ..
slit my throat ..
Blood came out with the swift,,
The first time I saw the blood like that ..

and risks that I'm afraid of happening ..
the guards in. ..
and beat me ..
until I lost consciousness ..
2 weeks old ..

I passed out ..
on a mattress in the prison hospital ..
vague eyes ..
I saw there was someone beside me ..
tell you even myself ..
he Star ..

"Hey .. welcome friends .. who heard you will be sentenced 30 years in prison .. "
and he laughed ...
I just reversed my body and sad,,

the next day I returned to my cell ..
I found a carton of cigarettes ..
and gave the letter ..
who said ..
"As our thanks ... greetings Stars"

and I tried to smoke cigarettes the first time ..
hum .. drift ..

and I know named Wind ..
old man who has 60 years in prison ..
he was hired as a chef in this prison ..

at rest .. in the field .. confined ..
he told me ..
"I do not know either .. later if I'm free ... I'm really scared .. all do not accept me ..
and I was more useful in this prison .. I'd rather be in prison .. all my life "

and Star said
"Initially you will not receive .. but slowly you get used to .. and no longer want to get out of this prison
this is why I call this prison .. "House" .. "

I do not know, I can not accept that statement.

2 years go by ..
The wind had expired in prison ..
he is free ..

3 weeks later ..
I found his letter sent in to me ...
he said

"Hi .. boys .. when I menginjakan foot back in reality ..
I see people more and more ..
than the first time I went into the prison .. day2 me full of fear
very creepy .. I could not sleep the night .. sometimes I think, what I have to kill
someone .. so I went into the prison .. but I was too old and I guess enough to do
confusion .. I prefer to buy a rope slap 2 meters .. and the bandage around my neck .. pleased to be
acquainted with you .. I wind your friend .. "

and I paused .. and handed the letter to the Stars .. that he read it anyway ...

"Hey Horizon .. after you'll be free Where do you want? "

"Beach Heaven .. they say .. the sea did not have the memories .. I just want to go there .. make
restaurants on the beach .. shoal fishing .. when caught thousands of fish .. no smile
grateful satisfied ... how about you Star? I need people like you .. may
you want to work with me "

"No .. maybe I'll end up like the wind .. "

"You do not have a hope ..? what's life without a dream .. reality is bitter .. and you
must say so in the spirit and continue to fight .. "

"What can be fought Horizon? .. look at that thick wall ... and fear behind the walls
it .. "

"One day .. go to Baven Hill ..
banyan tree there ..
thereafter the first time I express love with Angel
find a tree that carved hearts .. and below .. I bury something for you ... .. "

sekias question in the minds of Stars
and I cheated a reality ..

4 years old I was prepared ..
escape from this prison ..
evening ..

through sewage gorong2 ...
I crawl out of this prison ..
you never know ..
how it smells ..
how disgust ..

300 meters in length ..
until I get out ..
and immersed herself in the river ... ..

and I shout ..
as hard as possible ..
spuas2ku shout ..
I'm free ...

and began the long journey to the beach Heaven ...
and I start a new life there ..
shoal fishing
ocean friends
friendly to dusk ...

5 years go by ..
I have been thinking about a restaurant ..

and I was in the chair that I like ..
Heaven on the beach ...

slowly I heard ..
set foot on the white sand trail ..

and he greets me ...

"Horizon ..."
and I smiled at her friend Star ...
and I hugged him ..
I miss her ...